Grey

Next stage, a grey piece of paper, a new movie, a new story, a new man. Do I have to try loving all the men in order to find the one that's meant for me? Is it that hard to find him? Where are you? Where is the man that makes my heart freeze, that sings only for me, that looks closely into my eyes and sees the true me? Can I be happy like this, settling for an average me?
I can only be truly happy if I can hear you sing for me. Only if you sing I can hear your heart calling me so please please SING! I keep on waiting in this room, with orange sheets and curtains, with a man standing in front of me, ignoring me, torturing me. Can you hear me? I hope with all my heart, I pray that you can hear my soul crying to find and rescue me.
There is a song I heard in one of the dramas I was watching, it's called "Fly me to the moon". In what world can people love like this? In what world can I obtain happiness? Is it this one or the one next to it? Do I have to wish I was beautiful or very smart or have the kindest heart? Do I have to be all this to be loved and find love? Is this world even suited for me? Is my soulmate in this world?